stressness

It turns out my room definitely has leaks in it. It's not even that I care that there's a huge puddle on the floor. It's the incessant dripping noise. Rain, rain. Usually I like it, but only when I can stay inside all day and lay around. Today that wasn't a possibility. I had to get up and go to my internship. Things at KXAN are already tons better than they were at Fox. Apparently my reputation there was even more ruined than I'd thought when I left. It seems like most people should be allowed just one honest mistake in their life without a whole news department turning against them. What happened there hurt my feelings. I don't think I could ever go back for any reason knowing what was said about me. I am trying to be good at KXAN. If I screw up this internship at all I might reconsider things.

Today I went out on a story about the superintendent of a nearby school district resigning. It seems especially shady what's going on. There is information missing because right now no one knows why this guy resigned. He seemed perfectly nice. The people on the school board wouldn't talk about anything and their decision was made without any input from the community. Also, I was reading through the stories in our news program and I came across something about a girl who'd been shot on her dad's ranch. She was the granddaughter of one of the governors of Texas from the 60s/70s. The girl's last name immediately struck me as familiar, but I didn't think much of it because it doesn't seem so uncommon. Later this afternoon the station was receiving a story from an affiliate station about the death. They put up the girl's picture and I realized it was, in fact, the girl I thought it could be. She worked at the campus TV station. I didn't know her well but I'd seen her around. There are still a lot of unanswered questions because it was not released who she was with when it happened or any other details. I feel so bad for her family and friends.

Right now I should be sleeping or preparing for my presentation tomorrow at 9:30AM. I am panicky because the presentation is for the whole class period, in Spanish. Luckily I work with two other people who are native speakers. I am dreading it. My professor is difficult and has no qualms about embarrassing imperfect speakers in front of the whole class. There are three classes in a row tomorrow for me! I think I might have to come home and sleep all afternoon.

I am starting to wish I could cook. I've been eating soup almost every night. Salads during the day. I feel full in a lame way. Last night Andrew cooked eggs when we got home from our downtown adventure. They were so good. I don't know if it's because I had a drunken hunger or what. I'm pretty sure they were legitimately good. I was thinking about them all day. Anyway, I got home tonight and ate garbanzo beans. I think they are the best food that can come from a can. I put hot sauce on them...because I'm gross. It tasted too briny. I'm going to invent a dish with eggs, garbanzos and avocados. Maybe with hot sauce, too.