The past two nights have been too difficult. It's almost 4AM and I'm wide awake.
I got so bored I started walking around my room and lugged my high school yearbooks to bed. I was flipping through the pages, laughing out loud. I guess it's been long enough to start to see what people end up doing...or what direction they're headed in. It's interesting to see who you still know and who only lives on in your mind when you see their face in a yearbook. I'm so glad I left that world behind though. I was ready for college at least a year before I went.
Tomorrow (today) I return to Austin. Houston's been productive and boring. Austin will be unproductive and fun. At least until classes start. Actually, Houston was wholesome. Today my mom cooked me a nice meal of salmon with pineapple salsa for lunch. Then tonight I went to my dad's and he cooked a pork roast with vegetables and rice. I don't know how my parents are both such amazing cooks and I seem culinarily dysfunctional. Besides the good food, my family is generally good company. Chatting with my mom or joking around with my sister and dad...it's wholesome. :) Everyone in my family seems really happy for once. Before my parents divorced there were always arguments and complications and problems. Now it's easy--happy. I wish my parents and sister would just live in Austin so I could see them more.
This semester of school may be my last. On one hand I feel ready to get out of Texas and take on the world, but on the other hand, it's a little scary. It's so hard to believe the time is coming when I'll be "cut off". Part of me wants to stick around in Austin for a little bit longer, especially after being away for a semester. I'll try to make the most of whatever time I have. It's funny that during my last semester, when registration should be so easy because I'm a senior, it's actually the most difficult. I can't get my stupid schedule figured out. I need another elective class and there's potential for four:
-Unbelief in America, a history class about atheism, agnosticism, free thinkers, etc
-Mexican Identity (more or less), a Mex Amn studies class
-Election Campaigns, a government class, hopefully about the upcoming elections
-Theories of Persuasion, a Comm Studies class about...not sure...it was recommended to me
Right now I'm on a waitlist for Theories of Persuasion. I am enrolled in the elections class, but they changed the meeting time so I have to drop it. I think I am going to try to get into Unbelief because it sounds like the best. With luck it won't be closed by the time I register tomorrow. UT is such a pain in the ass with this stuff. And I'm a huge nerd because I just wrote about all this. It's my only free elective ever (almost)! It's a big deal!
Last night I saw "I'm Not There" about Bob Dylan's life. It actually confused my sister and I more than anything. I thought it was supposed to be six actors portraying Dylan throughout his life, chronologically or something. Instead it was more like six actors portraying what Dylan's life represented in a really abstract way. One of the characters in the movie is a young black kid who rides trains around the country while playing his acoustic guitar. My sister turns to me and asks, "Is that supposed to be Bob Dylan?" The character that most seemed to represent the Bob Dylan I am familiar with was Cate Blanchett's Bob Dylan.
By mmerola626
This woman is fabulous. She portrayed Dylan better than any of the men. She was largely the reason I wanted to see the movie and she made it worth my time. Only criticism: her nails should have been cut. I kept noticing her hands looking like lady hands and it distracted me. Unless, of course, Bob Dylan had lady hands. I'm still not sure exactly what I think of the movie. I have a feeling it's the kind of movie I need to think about and discuss a little bit more and then watch again. I think dismissing it would be unfair at this point. It did drag on at the end. Charlotte Gainsbourg was also marvelous. Her acting seemed effortless to me. And I think she's completely beautiful. I love her voice. I have such a girl crush on her. :)
My tongue still hurts because I ate too many Gobstoppers in the movie. I think I've candied myself out for awhile.
Now it's after 4AM and I'm still not tired but I'm going to force myself to lay down because I have to drive back to Austin tomorrow. Excited. Not about the driving though.
