Drool like a fool.

I'm writing again so soon because I don't want to write the things I should be writing. I have to finish this cover letter to the news director at Fox in Austin. I am applying for another internship there. I'm just nervous because I know we had conflict this summer and I'm not even sure there's any chance they'd accept me there again.

And I can't feel half of my mouth. I just got back from the dentist because I had to get a filling. I always feel ridiculous there because I'm so scared and they all know it. I'm terrified to pain. Aching I can deal with, but pain is different. Luckily my dentist is nice and humors my fear of the drill. I told him I was getting the filling over with because I'm leaving for Barcelona in a week and won't be able to see a dentist. He numbs my mouth with some pink gel on a long swab and then get out the HUGE needle. I swallow hard and tell him I'm not numb enough. Anticipating that needle makes my mouth dry up and my hands sweat. He says to open really wide and take a deep breath. I feel the panic feeling like I'm about to jump into deep water, but I do it. I feel the needle entering my gums and pinching. He tells me to think of the guys walking around on the beach in Barcelona and asking me if I'm American and saying, "We like Americans." Then he asks if I'm smiling at him. I am slightly smiling because he's being such a goofball. He thinks it's because I'm thinking of Eurotrash trying to hit on me. Haha. My mouth starts numbing more severely and he gets out the drill. It's nothing too bad. I am filled now. My mouth is slightly seeping drool. I can touch my lip and feel nothing. My lips looked dry in the mirror. I can't talk normally. Once this wears off I'll feel the minimal ache of pressure and start moving my tongue around over the filling. At least I'm fixed up.

There's too much stuff I need to do before I leave...I know I'm going to forget stuff. I need to figure out how I deal with money over there. What are traveler's checks? Do I need those? They sound so 90's. I need to find a way to back up important stuff from my computer since my external hard drive is a non-compatible piece of junk. There is packing to be done...eventually. I need to make copies of documents to leave with my dad. Today I at least feel a sense of accomplishment because I took care of that cavity.

It's almost 4pm and I haven't eaten anything. I don't know what the rules are for fillings. I feel like if I tried to eat/drink the stuff would fall out of my mouth. My lip feels like silly putty.

Oh! I'm regaining feeling!